There is a monster
That resides and thrives within
Lurking in the darkness
Hoping to prey on every folly and sin
Lying in wait, dormant for a while
Asleep inside, so quiet and sound
Only to rear his head
And drag me right down
On trial in front of unforgiving judges
Who decree laws befitting society’s grudges
Faces, with age, to not smudge
A seamless body, from perfection, to not budge
Engulfed in the darkness
Overtaken by the black night
Slave to their every whim
Be perfect, slim and trim
Not a hair out of place
The personification of prim
To rescue from this dreary plight
Not a soul lingers in sight
To offer a helping hand
There’s nothing and no one
To shed light on my unlit world
Not even the blinding sun
Turn a blind eye
To tears streaming from their eyes now
Not upto your toxic standards
How quickly you disavowed
Ridiculed the young girls
“Too thick in the middle”
Why didn’t you realise
They were still just solving puzzles and riddles
Haunted by the demons of my past
Should’ve known it could never last
Happy for a day, here and there
But the clouds descended
And laid the land bare
Forever in their traps
The monsters were waiting to ensnare
Starved to fit your standards
Smeared faces with salves instead of smiles
Body image issues, self consciousness
This was the main concern
Gave up the pounds
To get these in return
So I shut the world out
And shut myself in
The monsters, invisible to you
Are dwelling beneath my skin
And try though I might
I cannot escape
So is my life and such is my fate
The monster resides in my soul
There are days when it devours me whole
This is the monster
I now call my own
He is my enemy
And I am his home
Kishuuu ending bohot zyada zabardast hai 😍😍(goes for everyting else u wrote as well)
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Jazak Allah ❤
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Amazing 💖
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Thanks ☺
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the dark side
must
cede
to light
and right
not might
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Very true.
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yeah but what of lazarus and priya?
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I don’t know what you mean, sorry 🤐 are you speaking of st.lazarus ?
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yes risen death to life to death to life eventually glad you stayed around
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My post was not about life and death though.
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sorry i do often digress
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No worries ☺
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sure there are. and it is not all good.
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Superb way of ex pressing ur thoughts Ayesha. Every line was a delight to read. You have a God given talent to write. Don’t ever stop. Waiting for more of ur posting.
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Aww thankyou so much Anamika!! So sweet of you ❤ I hope I live up to your expectations ☺
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Love it!!
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Thankyou ! ☺
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You are welcome! Is there a way to repost this?
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Reblog ? I’m sure there is !
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Absolutely wonderful. Unforgiving judges. SO many, huh?
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Thankyou ! 😊 Haha yes, so so many.
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Every line, and I mean like literally every line of this is beautiful and deep beyond my imagination💖. I knew you’d come back with a hard blow! 😄💜
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Thankyou Megha ❤❤ Means more to me than you know that you appreciate it😊
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WOW this is amazing! You write beautifully ❤️
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Thankyou very much Tejasvi ☺❤
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Beautiful poem!😀 No seriously, HOW can you convey social issues SO beautifully, in POETRY no less?
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Aww shucks ! You’re going to make me blush🙊
THANKYOU Shreya !!! 😘❤
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This is incredible. Oh the pressure. And the monster. We’ve all known it. Such amazing writing
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Thankyou so much. That means a lot ☺
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I didn’t get it. I am not being lazy. I read it a few times. But who is the monster?
And a suggestion – Could you fix your comments? They become unreadable(on the web browser) when the threads run a few levels deep.
It sounds really nice, but “Too thick in the middle” (pointing to my head).
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Lol. There’s some issue with my comment section right now. It wasn’t even available a few hours ago. As in comments got disabled somehow *smacks forehead*
Ill see what I can do about that by tomorrow.
The monster isn’t a single one. I was referring to many things and maybe that became confusing. Primarily, it was meant to denote the voices outside and within, telling us we aren’t good enough.
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okay!! By means of rewards and punishments, society creates in us a monster of self loathing – which feeds on our constant failure to live up to its standards – that eventually comes to devour us. Am I getting close?
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Yup !! Nailed it 👌😊
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I just read it again. It makes so much sense. Too much actually. You couldn’t have thought of all the layers of meanings that are coming out.
No, of course you did. Genius!
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Haha😅Thanks thanks thanks. Appreciate it 🤗
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Well said.
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Thankyou ☺
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Ohmygod! Brilliant work like always! ❤
It’s so good to see you back!
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Thankyou very much Shruti 😗 It’s good to be back.
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Wow this is so deep yet so beautifully written. I hope to be able to write like this one day
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Awww. Thankyou so much Alexi ❤ You’re way too kind to say that.
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Your welcome 💕
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Well written!
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Thankyou ☺
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Beautiful poem. The way you have used the words to describe the feeling of darkness in your life and your coping mechanism is commendable.
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Very True! It’s really commendable!
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😘😊
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Gave me chills..
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Wow ! Thankyou 🤗
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Mesmerizing dark beautiful
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Thankyou so much 😊 Appreciate it !
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I really loved this. Our greatest fear or creation is ourselves because of what we might have become.
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Thankyou very much ☺ Agreed !
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Ayeshaaa why on earth this dormancy?? 😶
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You’ve gotta post soon. Can’t wait.
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Sumedha my dear, I was really waiting for your comment. Honestly. Then I started wondering that maybe you didn’t like it 🤐
I have finals coming up so I’m going to have to lessen(not stop) the posting 😋 I’ll still update though !
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Arghh… I’m sorryyy… I really loved it. Such lucidity in your expressions!! I didn’t realise I hadn’t commented before.
Oh, best of luck to you. Please update as soon as ‘mother freedom’ bestows blessings upon you.
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❤😊 Thankyou ! I hope mother freedom can ask father procrastination to stop bothering me so I can start studying 😋
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😂😂… Nice parents you have, huh?
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Haha. I’m the one with the problem. Can’t stop stressing while watching home alone, drinking coffee and not even trying 🤐
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I knoww.. I have my preboard tomorrow and these papers are really hard. All I’ve been doing is singing ‘bachna ae haseeno’, since the start of the day. It’s weird.
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Hahahaha😅 I’m glad I’m not the only one. Im stuck with Alan Walker’s Faded right now 🙊
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Beautiful, I love this
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Thankyou so much ☺
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❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
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😄😄😗😗
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Brilliant brilliant brilliant! Do I needa say more for posts from you? Because they are always sooo good!💞😃
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Aww thankyou very much Sann 😙😊
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Poignant and eloquently expressed.
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Thankyou very much 🙂
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My pleasure.
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The Dark side of a person well portrayed.
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Thankyou ☺
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Welcome.
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Awesome!
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Thanks !!
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Hey Ayesha! I have nominated you for the “Don’t Hate, Appreciate” Award. I hope you’ll check it out. 💜
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Thankyou so much Megha !!! So incredibly sweet of you to think of me 💖💖
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Ayesha, you should really post something, soon. It’s been a long, long time. It’s no fair!!
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Hii mini-me !! Exams for 2 more weeks Sumedha ☹ honestly wish I could continue writing my ramblings instead of ‘metagenomics of viruses’ 🤐
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‘metagenomics of viruses’?
Since when did they start have a genome? They are non-living half the time!! I personally like bacterias better. Far less work, I swear.
I feel like I’m missing the point here…
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Haha metagenomics for virus characterisation of RNA-DNA hybrid viruses its called I ran out of breath saying that one🙊 Yup unfortunately my bacteria-wala exam finished today itself.
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I hope it went well.
Allow me to say, you are lucky to be studying something so profoundly interesting instead of transistors and diodes. I swear, the day my boards get over, I’m done with technology!
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Haha I cannot even operate my gmail account sometimes. Technology stumps me. Trust me, it’ll all be over soon. And you can choose your own subjects 😉 thanks for the well-wishes😊
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Well written! You have recognized your shadow. The proper way to move forward is to incorporate it into your character, so you may call upon it in the face of malviolence.
“Be careful, lest in casting out your demon you exorcise the best thing in you” – Friedrich Nietzsche
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Thankyou so much! Lovely comment 😉
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Nice ..hmmm .there is a dark side and the light side in all of us ..
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True. Thanks for reading 😊
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Beautiful .
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Thankyou ☺
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you have been always my motivation…I just love your blog…please accept the award
https://merakiforever.wordpress.com/2018/03/07/award-ceremony/
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Ridaaaaa. You’re so sweet hun. Thankyou so much. Its such an honour. You’re very kind to think of me 💜❤
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I am so happy you responded❤
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