Monster

There is a monster
That resides and thrives within
Lurking in the darkness
Hoping to prey on every folly and sin
Lying in wait, dormant for a while
Asleep inside, so quiet and sound
Only to rear his head
And drag me right down

On trial in front of unforgiving judges
Who decree laws befitting society’s grudges
Faces, with age, to not smudge
A seamless body, from perfection, to not budge

Engulfed in the darkness
Overtaken by the black night
Slave to their every whim
Be perfect, slim and trim
Not a hair out of place
The personification of prim
To rescue from this dreary plight
Not a soul lingers in sight
To offer a helping hand
There’s nothing and no one
To shed light on my unlit world
Not even the blinding sun

Turn a blind eye
To tears streaming from their eyes now
Not upto your toxic standards
How quickly you disavowed
Ridiculed the young girls
“Too thick in the middle”
Why didn’t you realise
They were still just solving puzzles and riddles

Haunted by the demons of my past
Should’ve known it could never last
Happy for a day, here and there
But the clouds descended
And laid the land bare
Forever in their traps
The monsters were waiting to ensnare

Starved to fit your standards
Smeared faces with salves instead of smiles
Body image issues, self consciousness
This was the main concern
Gave up the pounds
To get these in return

So I shut the world out
And shut myself in
The monsters, invisible to you
Are dwelling beneath my skin
And try though I might
I cannot escape
So is my life and such is my fate

The monster resides in my soul
There are days when it devours me whole
This is the monster
I now call my own
He is my enemy
And I am his home